Ok brace yourself. . .
Much of what you describe has to do with puberty.
Our psyche goes nuts twice in life; at puberty and as we enter "old age", both being due to chemical changes in the body and mind. During both periods heightened psychic-like phenomena happens with Astral Travel being at the top of the list. You've probably had far more journey's than you think in that most, between the age of 10 and 15 tend to have a significant number of OBEs or Visitations. I have a theory as to why this is the case but I'll not share it at this time.
The other point (and you really won't like this) is that you are entering your teen years and your primary peer group will be other teens, all of whom are feeling alienated and "need" to be accepted as part of a group, the more unique the better. So finding people that cosign your thoughts about being psychic is once again, part of the puberty process.
BUT, there can be a truth to it as well. I'm not out to bust your bubble, just to get you to come down to earth and stop wading in da-Nile. . .
Psychologically I'm betting that you want to be different because you enjoy the shock value. It's just like the Goth and Emo types that want to get the rest of society to raise a judgmental eyebrow. Again, it's a common part of puberty or, to be more accurate, pushing the boundaries as you become an adult and learn to claim your own identity in life. The cruelest thing our modern culture lacks are rites of passage and as such, we end up with limbo kids who want to act up and act out. One way of doing this is believing yourself to be Psychic, an Abductee, a Witch, Wizard, Necromancer and then we go into the Vegan idiocy and when none of that works the truly desperate go join a church for a couple of years before realizing they don't want to live a lie. . . and I don't mean that in the atheistic sense of things but more along the line of seeing the duplicity and corruption within organized religion as a whole.
Now, I don't want to do a Reading on you though I have touched on a few things that are probably hot buttons. Again, I need to get you off that fluffy New Age cloud and encourage you to NOT read instruction manuals of the sort you are presently enjoying. I'm a bit familiar with that text and I've never recommended it to anyone when it comes to psychic development and related curiosities. I do encourage them to visit and to study in order to get some kind of viable foundation under their belts; these sources give you the "science" behind Metaphysics as well as wisdom perspectives that apply to Mind, Body & Spirit -- all facets of life and living. Then there are the other books I suggested for reasons mentioned but more so, someone as "desperate" as you to be psychic, needs to take the slower boat in order to actually open those chakra points in order to see, feel, hear and even taste the greater reality. Most of those books you find in the New Age bookstores exist for one soul reason; to make money for the publisher, the author and the merchant. Very few of those books have anything of safe and genuine value in them though I feel that certain authors are better and more honorable than others, such as my friends Richard Webster and Jon St. Germain ().
But there are other reasons you need to come down from that cloud, your denial being one. . . or as I've suggested already, your need to be unique. It's a very dangerous position to allow yourself to be in because it frequently leads to very dark, destructive depression cycles that typically include obsessive-compulsive disorders around food, sex, drugs, booze, and other vices that rob you from knowing a quality sense of existence. So come down to earth, get grounded and listen to an old Pagan Priest who really does give a damn (though we've never met . . . physically).
Now I'm going to make a prediction of sorts . . . whether you admit to it or not (to us) I'll bet that you are going to have some very intense "dreams" off and on over the next 90 days and through them YOUR Spirit Guides & Teachers are going to be echoing what I've just said. You are actually going to meet the real thing, quite probably for the first time in your current state (we usually encounter at least one of these entities when we're toddlers, it's typically the Teacher). How you deal with these dreams and how you reconcile the issues they will force you to look at, is going to affect you for the rest of your life; you'll either take the higher path or damn yourself to a lowly state of being. In either instance it's part of your own karma and more importantly YOUR DECISION, so you can't blame God, Family, Environment, Prejudice or any of that other stuff for your failings should you choose wrongly.
Pay attention to these dreams and keep a journal (and to the best of your ability, free of bias; be as accurate to the dreams as possible, especially when and where things are painful to your heart and ego). Chances are strong you will see at least one or more divinatory sequences, usually with the Tarot but frequently tied to Palmistry and Astrology as well; PAY VERY CLOSE ATTENTION TO THESE READINGS and again, be as accurate as you can in outlining the way the cards lay and what's said about your various paths, karmic obligations, etc. These are very important events so allow yourself to experience them and participate with them -- LEARN! Fear is an illusion,
False
Evidence
Appearing
Real. From what I can see by your defensive pose in your previous post, you have been living out the other translation of said term --
Fuck
Everything
And
Run -- you would rather embrace the fantasy of being psychic over the reality and obligations thereof.
Oh! One more thing. . . keep an eye out for a big guy with a rather unusual beard. He usually wears either Golden earth-tone robes with a reddish & green under-garment or when he's really driving a point, he'll show up in bright red robes trimmed with gold and black. I can promise you, he's going to be in your dreams and not in the too distant future.